A.N

Now this is about A.N

I have not seen him for the past 7 weeks

and the last time i saw a glimpse of him was on the 14th of April 2011...

I thought I would see him again, but i did not

and here i am after 7 weeks

wondering, why did i went to the washroom? i knew that a mistake would cost me

and i know i did that mistake and it is killing me inside

not slowly but i know i am dying inside.

I would give anything to see him

it is a month now after i asked him his birth year

on 29th April 2011,

i plucked up whatever courage i had in me

and i messaged him on F.B

he actually replied :)

he was born in 1985 :D

and then onwards

everything that i know about him

anything that is related to him keeps on showing up,

his name, everything, anything that is related to him

it's like i am not allowed to forget him

not even once

anywhere i go

anything i read

will always lead me back to him and his memories

i miss him

i know i miss him

and this is different from last year

this is the type of longing

that i feel like crying

believe me a tear or 2 dropped

i dream of him

and it feels so real

i could hear his voice

i could feel his gaze upon me

i could feel his presence.

i see him

even when my eyes are open

visions of him will appear

his scent will be there when i miss him

everything i had never thought of

came to me.

he is someone i never dreamed of liking

forget anything else that comes after like

nowadays

it is really easy to see him

i have these images of him being in my life in the future

the pieces now fit with each other

they fit perfectly

in my images only

have i told you

that it is my very dream

to give him a present

that is a whole set

of Baju Melayu that is black in colour

i really want to look at him wearing this

just once

and everything will be alright

for me :)

and i found more pictures of him :)

I Miss You dear A.N