Tentang perasaan pula

Ha ha ha

got a new eye interest

his name is ali Nsser

he is a canadian

he is hot! Hot! HOT!

he he

actually i am captivated by his eyes

they look very innocent

cute :P

Hindustan pula???

he he he

saya tak syok sangat kat dia dah

tapi bila nampak dia

nak juga tengok kan..

tak pa la

kita tengok la how :P

tapi saya tetap sayang kat Tarabas....

Tentang Bahasa

Apabila berkata tentang bahasa

saya sangat suka

apparently we learn a new word

from a language that we listen to every day

from songs, movies or even people around us

I am currently forced by the authorities

to take up the arabic language...

I like it

but it is starting to pull myself down.

I am very very tired

It is not that i do not like to learn a new language

but to do so

you need someone who will teach you

to be very active

someone who is lively

and who understands that we are not native speakers of the language

now it is quite tough

and the lecturer does not understand this

haish

well by hook or by crook

I have to go through with all of this

if not

I cant and wont be able to Graduate from this place!!!

I do not want that to happen

hence,

I will have to push myself to the very top!!!

Go Go Go Aini :P

Cukup untuk sehari

semakin hari semakin liat untuk menaip kat sini!!

sem. baru dah start

subject pun semua baru

semua semakin susah

saya pun semakin serabut jadinya

macam sabut kelapa!!

haish

masalah ada di mana mana

datangla ia apabila di cari

saya tengah cari masalah la ni

nak serabutkan kepala sendiri....

tentang lelaki korea

let us start with the important things firt yea

I am into Hwang Taekyung from A.N.JELL

and so into FT Island's "Girls dont know love."

when we watch dramas and movies that produce lead actors that are to die for

they really get into your head

well Hwang Taekyung got in me so fast

and it's hard for me to get rid of him.

haish kenapa la begini ceritanya????

the songs in that cerita pun boleh tahan juga.

nak tahu ceritanya watch la.

tentang hidup

read the papers today and

i read on the death that killed a groom, his parents together with a friend

dia baru nikah 4 jam

dan accident berlaku

isterinya menyambut kepulangan jenazah suami

bukan suami...

tentang hati

sakit sangat apabila orang itu ada di depan mata tapi buat tak endah je

sakit sangat di buat begitu

you know you do not want to lose this really really precious thing

but circumstances force you to do so.

hati sampai tak rasa apa apa saat tidak di endahkan

tapi dia tidak kisah

dan dia tidak akan kisah

banyak lagi hati yang di beri kepadanya

lantas hati ini langsung tidak bererti...

telaga di mata ini sudah kering

namun setitik air tetap kan tumpah saat perit di hati kembali.

perlukah hilangkan diriku ini untuk dirinya belajar menghargai ku?

i told myself it will not be a problem to let him go but

i know it is not that easy

God knows that it is not easy

and God knows that i love God more than him!!

I just need time to let us go....

Lamanya tak menaip....

agak dah lama la kan tak merepek kat sini

during this very-very-long-yang-tak-seberapa-long-pun

banyak dah berlaku dan yang ingin diberlakukan (BM SANGAT TERUK)

let us start babbling right away:

1. I got three new piercings. i sangat suka :P

2. saya dapat my SLR D3000 and I am loving every single bits and pieces of it.

3. my life has been and still is a big mess!!

4. i got a new niece. her name is Sarra Qalbu :p

5. last last pergi bird park dari Bukit tinggi yang dah lama sangat nak pergi tu :(

6. saya jadi semakin tak ada perasaan..sangat tidak elok!!

7. ada ke patut budak perempuan ni tanya me n my frens "bila korang 3 nak gaduh huh?

macam baik je. nak juga tengok." I was like..kenapa la dia ni mulut macam longkang

besar kat K.L tu.

8. saya sangat suka this ring kat perlini's sangat sangat cute

9. accessories kat Accessorize gila punya mahal..saya dah la tengah broke ni

10. sangat la suka baju baju kat T-Box. cantik. packaging sangat cute

11. watched time traveler's Wife and my heart beat stopped there and there and

got out of the panggung my heart was like dead. terkejut. sad sad sangat.

12. watched This is it! sedih. saya sayang Michael Jackson.

13. watched Pisau cukur and I tell you I love it! sangat worth it. pergi la watch

semua sangat la best dalam cerita tu.

14. read He's just not that into you, I LOVE IT FROM THE VERY BEGINNING RIGHT TO

THE END!!! I strongly encourage, no, force you ladies to read it. It made me realise things.

Seriously, go and read it. The male species pun go ahead. it wont kill you :P

15. My exams are killing me

that explains all the movies that i watched.

16. there's this cat that really irritates me. he poops everywhere and let me tell you anywhere

dia nak. bilik kawan saya yang tak bersalah tu dia melepaskan hasratnya itu!!!

17. i bought 5 new pairs of shoe!! depressed tahap gila

18. nak sangat peluk kesayangan saya from the back. dream on!!

19. i want to keep my hair until it reaches the base of my waist, colour it red and then

curl the hell out of it :P

20. I need a new pair of shoes and new body piercing...

that's just it for now

haa amek kaw!!!!

suka......

sorry la

saya nak tulis tak best la

saya suke beritahu muka ke muka

baru ada expression

bila u baca kan

u kena teka expression saya

jadi marilah duduk depan saya

I will be the best story teller

yang berzodiac Libra!!!!

in this entire "Nature"!!!

Jika Engkau Pergi!!!!

Bermulanya semua hanya dengan rasa
ada saja yang tak kena
Rupanya kau berkasih
Menyingkir setia
Sandiwara penuh dusta

Kini ku beri satu amaran
Jangan nanti jadi cabaran
Aku ingin kau memadam kenangan
Menjadi mimpi berterbangan

Jika engkau pergi, bulan dan bintang tetap masih di langit
Jika engkau pergi, air mengalir takkan berhenti
Jangan khuatir tentang diri ku
Ku janji takkan merindui mu

Bermusim resah hadir membelai
Menyentuh hati kecewa
Janji sehidup semati
Tinggal tiada lagi
Impian hancur depan mata

Semakin terungkap kepastian
Biarlah ku rela melepaskan
Pada mu cinta cuma lah mainan
Sekadar untuk senda bersama

Puas sudah ku berikan engkau segalanya
Jalan cerita pun nyata akan berubah

dear ladles and jelly spoons

this song

i tell you

it is really really good

if u do not read malay

basically this song

let me summarise yes ;D

this song is trying to send out the message

that even if ur lover leaves you

you can still go on

and the song is trying to tell us that

without "you" in our lives

we can n will carry on with our life.

it is not the end of the world honey

cheers people :D

Hari Raya 2009

Ni Farhan



Ni Khairul


Ni adik saya Khadijah Addawiyah

Fun fun fun
that is all i have and can say to all of you
The best raya I had so far
everyone was so happy we ate, played and just spent our time together
i know i am 21 but i still get duit raya
besh!!!

my baju raya is yellow in colour
i bought a new pair of baju kurung on the third of raya
for fun
oh ya
n i bought 2 new pairs of shoes
i love shoes by the way :P
he he he
the food, well, all i can say is that for the whole week of after 1st raya,
i ate instant noodle everyday
day in and day out
wicked!!! :P

i had so much fun with my very little and small cousins
khalid khairul n farhan
I love them so much.
these are a few picts of them and me n my sisters
(on our way back from singapore)
dalam van lagi tau :D

tengok la ye :O

apabila berkata tentang L.E.L.A.K.I dalam hidup hamitaf inia

Dalam hidup yang serba indah ini

lelaki dan wanita dicipta kan untuk melengkapkan hidup masing masing...

masalahnya kan

apabila lelaki yang di harapkan untuk melengkapkan diri ini yang dah semestinya serba tak lengkap

saya jadi lagi tak lengkap

faham ke tidak???

saya perlukan seseorang yang tak ada sifat pemarah

sangat penyayang

tak benyak kerenah

suka merajuk sikiiiit je

dan ketinggiannya apabila my head is exactly on his chest

siapa ada ketinggian tu boleh la datang audition yea :P

masalahnya kan

apa yang mereka tak faham adalah

1. saya tak nak present, saya nak anda ada di saat saya perlukan anda

2. saya tak kisah kalau anda tak msg, tapi sila lah balas apabila msg masuk

3. saya tak suka apabila anda menaikkan suara tanpa sebab dan mula la nak kata "awak ni"

sangat tak suka

4. kadang kadang anda PMS lagi teruk dari saya tau...

5. kalau dah suka atau sayang orang lain cakap saja kat saya, i dont mind....dari membiarkan saya tergantung tak bertali menunggu awak dari subuh pagi tengah hari petang senja n sehinggalah malam....

i only need someone who can n will be able to guarantee me a life that is far from hatred, anger and full of sorrow....

P.S ,P.S

this is my new love interest

ha ha ha

Kim Heechul :)

I LOIKE HIM!!!

Inconsolable....

I close the doorLike so many times, so many times before

Felt like scene on the cutting room floor

When I let you walk away tonight without a word

I try to sleep,

But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me

A thousand more regrets unravelling oh

If you were here right now

I swear I'd tell you this

Baby I don't wanna waste another day

Keeping it inside is killing me

Coz all I ever want it comes right down to you (to you)

I'm wishing I could find the words to say

Baby I would tell you everytime you leave

I'm inconsolableI climb the walls,

I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no

I memorized the number

So why can't I make the call

Maybe coz I know you'll always be with me

In the possibilities

Baby I don't wanna waste another day

Keeping it inside is killing me

Coz all I ever wanted comes right down to you

I'm wishing I could find the words to say

Baby I would tell you everytime you leave

I'm inconsolable

I don't wanna be like this

I just wanna let you know

That everything that I'm holding

Is everything I can't let gooh oh no can't let go

Coz baby I don't wanna waste another day

Keeping it inside is killing me

Coz all I ever want it comes right down to you

I'm wishing I could find the words to say

Baby I would tell you everytime you leave

I'm inconsolableoh no

Don't you know it babyI don't wanna waste another day

I'm wishing I could find the words to say

Baby I would tell you everytime you leave

I'm inconsolable

I'm inconsolable

I'm inconsolable

money, duit and ...

when people are in need of money

they do not n will not show up

like in my case

i need the money for a subject that requires an SLR

it is for my photography class

so we went to where they keep money

also known as the bank

they said something like "no we do not lend money to students.

we only give money to people who need to clear their debts and other stuff"

it's like hey we need the money too u know...

this is why peiople go to loan sharks for money

because the bank will not help people who are not "qualified"

to make a loan

we need the cash

really need them

fast!!!

we opted for saving cash n buying it sumwhere next year but

it'll take 50 weeks to get rm 2500

50 WEEKS!!

help help help!!!

Yasmin Ahmad

it came as a shock to me when i heard Yasmin Ahmad collapsed during a presentation at TV3

from then onwards, i knew but i hoped that she will not succumb to her illness.

then it came out on TV3's news at 1.30 that she passed away at 11.25 pm on the 25 of july. a month after the demise of my beloved MJ.

again another priceless treasure that God bestowed upon us

is taken back and will never ever return.

me n my family thought that it was better if she passed on

because after strok attacks it's victim, their lifes will never be the same again...

never..

i will miss all her brilliant and touching advertisements

i never missed any of her movies but Ionly missed Muallaf

due to the fact that it is not available in Malaysia

My favourite ad would be the funeral on where Jo Kukathas

as a widow talked on how her husband was imperfect in every perfect ways...

to Yasmin Ahmad

I have always n will always love all your work of art

your smile

laughter

and tender loving care...

You gave me Malay Movies that i can bear watching

and you passed on the message of what true love really means...

Salute..

Have a wonderful time

up there where no one can ever ever hurt you again.....

Love,

Aini Fatimah

Death...again...

I am really sure that by now every single individual in this whole planet knows that Michael Jackson passed away due to Cardiac arrest.. and what people know that everyone who made claims that he molested them thestified that he was innocent all along... what irks me is that they unveiled this only after his death.. i hope they burn in helll!!! sorry i cant help it. i love Michael to pieces, not only after his demise but since the day i was able to know and understand the meaning of music...we would sit infront of the telly everyday and actually watch his vids and listen to his songs all day.

now all his songs make me feel like a-splinter-that-stings-my heart because u and i know he will not be there anymore..but at least, they will actually leave him alone already...

Now the second chapter of death that came to me on the same day that they pronounced MJ dead is when we went to the pasar malam near my house. me n my mother would usually buy Yong tau foo at this stall. the best so far that we like. then my mother spoke to the aunty and they conversed which sounded like this " lama tak berniaga, cuti ke? hari tu pergi melawati tak ada n kat sini pun tak ada. "siapa budk perempuan tu? menantu ke? and then the aunty answered "tak la tu anak saudara" and she said without a single sadness in her eyes "anak nombor dua tu dah meninggal, sebab tu tak ada. 25 jun hari ni dah sebulan dia meninggal. dia meninggal accident kat station minyak, terkena jantung dia"

then i saw the shock on my mother's face and i asked her what happened. i thought the aunty's husband passed away. but my mum said to me after we went away that her second son passed away.

by the way, that boy is really cute :P..

that news stayed in my head for a few days. it is weird how people that we only see and are not close to can take a toll on my life. i keep on remembering him and the way he helped his mother how he smiled how his hair was totally blonde at one point, and how he looked like where he stood before. his actions, gestures and many more.

each time we return to his mother's stall, i would look at her and somehow or rather the sadness in her eyes can be sensed.

the pain of losing someone is unbearable.

but she is a very strong lady. she kept her spirits up and she said life has to go on to.

my mother said that losing a son or daughter will be the priceless treasure a parent can lose.

if it were my mother she said she would not know what to do

Me, myself and I would not know what to do .....

this is life...will i be able to live through it???

i was sitting in my room then
suddenly my sister looked at me and said this " you know something, my friend ika her cousin just gave birth and she just finished her confinement period, the sad thing is she just got the news that her husband passed away in an accident today, on his way to meet her and their daughter on the urge to take them home. he died on the way to kelantan and he died on the spot i guess. this is their first daughter and i am not sure how her cousin is doing right now.....

i was showering and i started to think and contemplate..
will i be able to handle this situation??
it is their first child, they just got married and he died on the way to take them home
to start a family
a perfect family...

Life......

krak kriuk krak

splurging of ideas from my very own stomach

God knows how hungry i am now

the very the hungry

i need something to eat

or drink

help help help

the amount of music my stomach is making

haish

:P

Do read n listen to the song if u have it yea :P

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming

But there's a voice inside my head saying"You'll never reach it

"Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down

But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most, yeah

Just gotta keep goingAnd I,

I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on'

Cause there's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing

Keep the faith, baby

It's all about, it's all about the climb

Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

when u live ur life the way it is supposed to be

u can never and will never know what is in store for you.

whatever it is,

always look at scenery around u while u walk

because we seldom do that in our daily life

including me :)

this song goes out to everyone i know and care for...

cheers

xoxo,

urungku...

Tabula Rasa...n guys

ha ha ha

once again i am at a blank state of mind or "Tabula rasa"

that is for some other reason actually :). i am assigned to an assignment to write on multiculturalism in america, and am suppose to write based on a short story. the problem is i do not know how or when to start. darn i wish i am not facing this as what they call the writer's block. the thing is i am suppose to relate all the information i have with facts and articles by different people and am suppose to write on Poe n Twain. help help help

i do not know how to do this. if only i have this fairy godmother who would whiff her wand around and complete all that is suppose to be done.

i so wish i can spend my days at the beach right now. i am tired n am in need of a vacation to lets say Ne Caledonia :) i sure want to unwind there and run barefooted on the beaches there. and travel around the island. would be really fun. just like in Boys over Flower.

how i wish i had one of Gu Jun Pyo for my self...

i'll put a few pictures of him and his F4 friends in the drama yea

i bet if u like korean movie or dramas

u will love this guy :)

signing out

Urungku :P

haish i so want a guy who can and will love me the way he does...

Sonnet 17

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz

or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,

in secret, between shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms

but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;

thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,

risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,

I love you simply, without problems or pride:

I love you in this way

because I don't know any other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I nor you,

so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,

so intimate that when I fall asleep

it is your eyes that close.

movies, wayang dan...

now i've watched 17 again, monster vs. aliens, drag me to hell, hannah montana the movie and it is good to know that i am not missing up on any of the movies that i want to watch so far. call me crazy but i have missed quite a number of good movies in the past because i fail to catch them on time. now the only problem is that i am craving for more. harry potter, transformers, ghosts of girlfriend's past are some of the movies that i want to watch...hope it will come true..

i do watch movies from my pc but still the experience is not the same. the sound and picture (except 17 again the sound was quite disappointing at times) is not the same. u get very good auditory experience and i tell you having an old lady scream at your face is really scary when you watch it at the cinema. at home u wont really experience that kind of atmosphere..

then again, i am still waiting for a local movie to air. the movie setem, i watched the trailer and i think it will be a hit among the movie goers.. you have afdlin n rashidi ishak and my sister's favourite actor BRONT PALARAE. I guess she will be the firt person to watch this...

i love the part where afdlin mumbled something on Justin Timberlake to rashidi but he answered back "aku kata "just don't be late" and everyone in the cinema laughed...

well clearly this is an early sign that i should catch this movie :D

anyways people do go out and catch a movie or two and enjoy yourselves..

chao chin chao :P

I do not butter up people's a***..

feelings that are killing me...

here's the thing

i do not

let me emphasise this part

I DO NOT BUTTER PEOPLE 's arses UP!!!

I only compliment or help out of sincerity

i help in order to make that person's life a bit better

or am just being a good samaritan!!

i thought people understood this

but i guess

i failed to make them understand...

i do not treat others in a way that i know it'll hurt them

but others do this without thinking and ends up

hurting the other person..

always

24/ 7

365 and 366 days..

it hurts me when

people who i trust , love, cherish and

have faith in them

they go and betray it

by doing the

opposite of my affections towards them.

and i mean

the love that i have was not bulit in days

but years

after

having faith, trust and love,

when it hurts u intentionally

it kills you inside out

and

i did not know

it will hurt me this much...

apa punca saya demam??

life a.k.a kehidupan seharian on a sunday night

It's a sunday night
as usual I will head back to campus
unpack stuff and catch up on things with my roomates
and tomorrow my day starts of at 9 am

this coming week is a revision period week for us
me and my frens will have a hectic week ahead of us,
we have a take home quiz which is worth 35 marks,
it is on sociology, which i find it quite tough to comprehend.
the exam before this was quite an easy one, did not really have this situation i am in right now..
and it's due date is this tuesday
we are in trouble :P

well on the bright side,
Me n yuhanis decided that we will catch Talentime sumwhere next week, but i am re-considering things. hurm...I really want to watch it but my exams that are due on saturday and sunday MORNING is getting in my way. Plus i have a family gathering in my house on that saturday night itself and the next day my other exam resumes!!
I have not a single idea on those two subjects. and i only have five days to master the whole thing. x2

By the way
Every movie by Yasmin ahmad is a must watch. This much I can tell you.
I love Sepet, Gubra, Mukhsin but too bad cant watch Muallaf in Malaysia if i'm not mistaken
but the Big twist here is that
my cousin from singapore will try to grab a copy of Muallaf's DVD if it's available
lucky us.
but still Iwould really love it if i can catch it on Cinema screen. in Malaysia!!

I have to leave now
if anyone has anything to share or
anything u want to say
go ahead yea :)
nity nite
xoxo, urungku

My first ever typed thoughts...

You make me wanna la la la la la la....

my first ever typed thoughts that goes public
not a big deal really
but i think whatever i have to say after this will,
well maybe it will affect or relate to some people or even organisations
but still
it is my way of giving out and expressing of what i have to say and may i say advise

it is to my delight to enlighten anyone
whom i humbly thank in advance
if you carry on reading my post after this

do stay tune
for more post yea
xoxo hamitafinia