this is itttt

splurging of ideas...

this shows that I have internet connection with me 24/7

i update my blog like

i have never updated before

ha ha ha

you can tell by reading this

that

I have nothing else to do

I am not used to

"onlining" everyday

hence

explains why I do not know what to do

when I have the internet!!!!

right now

i am doing my arabic homework

h ahah aha

it shows that

i

have

nothing

else

to

do!!!

I Miss You

These are the words
that I have been wanting to tell this person so badly.
I Miss You!
I really Miss You
it's been so long since I last saw You
I actually long to see you
I really do

I look for you
I search for you
but I still can't seem to find you
I ask for you
I do things that I have never did before
I even liked you
like I have never liked anyone like you before

You are different
You are not like the usual's
You are You..
You smile differently
You walk differently
You talk differently

You are never
the usual
people
that I used to like

how do I come to know You
after awhile
you were in my life for the past two years
and I never acknowledged You
You sipped into my life like water
You flow in and out
but it took me awhile to realise

You came when I was in pain
maybe
that is why
I noticed You
You heal me unconsciously
You were there every time I needed You
I didn't realise You
then
but now maybe
it is You who do not realise Me....

and now I have to tell you
that
I
I miss You
I really do...

I miss you

splurging of ideas...

This is for 'YOU'

When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted,
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning
Sank chill on my brow
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame:
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.

They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well:
Long, long shall I rue thee
Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?
With silence and tears.

When we two are parted
Lord Byron

My Love life...?????

What about my love life??
no big deal really but
I cannot help questioning myself
What am I doing??
why am I doing this and
How should I do this?

I am complicating my own life
that is the exact answer if someone were to ask me
what I am talking about...

first thing's first
do I even know what Love is??
or do I pretend that I know what Love is
and Make myself believe that I know Love..
I'm not making any sense huh?

is waiting for someone that I know will never be mine is called Love?
is giving my all to that person and not hope for anything back is called love?
is not getting angry at that person when he does something that I can never tolerate with someone else is called Love??
is soothing my own heart when that person hurts me and saying "it's okay" is called Love?
is waiting for that person's text message until dawn and that person says "I fell asleep" is called Love?
is loving that person unconditionally is called Love?
is crying every time that person hurts me and that person doesn't care is called Love?
is seeing that person messaging someone else in front of you and you don't say a word when he does not reply your messages is called Love?
is looking at that person when he does not look at you anymore is called Love?
is looking at someone who does not know you exist is called Love?
is liking someone that does not like you because he does not know you is called Love??
is walking away from that person when he has hurt you really bad is called Love?

or just pretending that we have never loved is what is really called Love

Money, Duit, Fulus, Rinjitat, Dollar, Pounds...

what is install for me tomorrow
i wonder what life and God have in line for me
i am back from my holidays
i need to start working part time
the problem is you know
I do not know what I want to do
I do not have the time to tell you the truth
but I have to find the time and
the money
I need to do this
I have to!!!

I will resume my classes tomorrow morning and
yes I am alone for the first time in this place
I only have two classes this semester
but it takes most of my time
I do not have enough cash
and I want to buy alot of things
I need a new or more new pair/pairs of shoe
I need to pay a whole sum of money for something
I need to work my weight out
I NEED CASH!!!!!

I need many things right now
which I suddenly can't help questioning myself
for some time
Am I not Content enough with my LIfe???
Am I not content enough with what God
has given Me???

what is wrong with me???